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Stranger: 19 m want a chick to punch me in the face and then spit on me
You: nope but you got weird fantasy
Stranger: it’s completely destructive
Stranger: just fantasizing about it does a number on your self esteem
Stranger: but it’s just so hot
Stranger: fucked up childhood
Stranger: stepmom used to slap me
You: man sorry to hear that
Stranger: congrats on introducing another creep into the world
You: but you don’t have to beat yourself up like that , you can change things
Stranger: I really wish I could
Stranger: I can still have regular sex and everything
Stranger: but it’s just nowhere near the high I get from this
Stranger: it’s going from pot to heroin
You: yeah the scar is still there
Stranger: but then I feel like shit afterwards
Stranger: even when I’m just fantasizing about it
Stranger: I feel disgusted with myself
Stranger: I know it sounds like a joke, but I usually do curl up into a fetal position and sob a little after I jerk off
Stranger: wow that is pathetic
Stranger: that just started recently
Stranger: well it was worse for a while
Stranger: for a while I was into financial domination
Stranger: which is just giving away money to mean chicks on the internet
Stranger: it’s so fucked up
Stranger: but it can become an addiction
You: is that why you’re here?
Stranger: just kind of wanted to strike up a convo like this
You: it’s pretty deep stuff man
You: but it’s okay i’ll listen
Stranger: I really do feel like I need to talk to someone about this
Stranger: to be honest I’ve never acted out on it
You: first time i met a conv like this
Stranger: but just fantasizing about it and having those images run through your head is just bad
Stranger: it just makes your life shitty
Stranger: I absolutely hate s&m
Stranger: and that lifestyle
Stranger: and I hate how everyone who isn’t a part of it, or sometimes who is, gives the same “hey, if these guys didn’t enjoy it, they wouldn’t be doing it”
Stranger: obviously if you’re into the kind of stuff I am, there’s some bad wiring in your brain
Stranger: this isn’t just a healthy choice I’ve made
Stranger: it’s a compulsion
Stranger: like any addiction
You: yeah it is a addiction
Stranger: like teenage girls with eating disorders
You: is like to cover the pain or some sort
Stranger: “well they clearly must enjoy vomitting after every meal”
Stranger: “they’re deciding to do it!”
You: or i guess feeling the pain
Stranger: we can all understand that things like that aren’t healthy
Stranger: that those people need assistance
Stranger: but when it comes to sexual stuff, we’ll then you’re just a creep
Stranger: “but hey, whatever you’re into man”
Stranger: it’s the same reason women who were abused always seek out abusive relationships
Stranger: no one gives the “hey man, it’s what they want”
Stranger: we understand that they weren’t given the same healthy normal brain that most people have
Stranger: they need some therapy
Stranger: but somehow when a guy wants to pay a chick in latex to kick his balls for an hour, that’s perfectly fine
Stranger: no one wants to look uptight, so everyone just says they’re cool with it
Stranger: to prove how open minded they are
Stranger: dominatrixes are horrible people
Stranger: they’re victimizers who get paid hundreds an hour to abuse people with emotional baggage
Stranger: no one has a fucking problem with that?
Stranger: what the hell is wrong with people
Stranger: I think most people think that dominatrixes are essentially prostitutes
Stranger: that’s not the case at all
Stranger: These are just bullies
Stranger: most sessions involve the type of stuff I fantasize about
Stranger: face slapping, ball kicking, severe verbal degradation
Stranger: sometimes the guys will just paint the chick’s toenails for an hour
Stranger: and then hand her the $250
Stranger: and most dominatrixes are into that financial domination too
Stranger: who the fuck wouldn’t
Stranger: it’s all just so retarded
Stranger: exploiting people with emotional weaknesses
Stranger: and it’s perfectly legal
Stranger: but prostitution, sorry no can do
You: but it’s all the same but different examples and different degrees and severities
You: but they all have one point in common
You: is all to hide cover the pain
You: but the pain is still there like a scar
Stranger: I think it’s more intricate than that
You: but it’s so deep that
Stranger: there’s definitely an aspect of avoiding true intimacy
You: they have to endures these sickness
Stranger: which would bring up those bad feelings
You: but why do they continue on something that is wrong that makes them worst
Stranger: usually it’s just a compulsion
You: like hurting themselves physically and mentally
Stranger: a way to manage emotions that they become so dependent on, they can’t even considering stoping
Stranger: when it just makes their situation worse
Stranger: it’s just like any drug addiction
Stranger: you know that you’re shitting away your friends and family by doing meth
Stranger: but you don’t stop
Stranger: same thing here
Stranger: and most of these guys won’t even admit that to themselves
Stranger: it’s so shameful
You: but also makes worst
You: it’s a vicious cycle
You: but after that once it because too severe they can kill themselves or suicide
You: because they can’t take it anymore
You: or it’s too much for them
You: but there always a cure for everything right?
You: is hard but there is always help
You: usually music helps me
You: happy,sad,angry,neutral
You: they can find something “healthier” for a addiction
You: are you feeling better?
You: people should be open to this so i’ll post this
You: you can post it to omeagle post
You: they’ll decide to post
You: well i hope i help you out in some ways?
Stranger: just needed to talk to someone
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